Why Write A Blog

Why Write A Blog

Why would a self-professed perfectionist who loves change, has a chronic illness, and has studied all forms of spirituality want to write a blog?  The answer is pretty simple… because I’m passionate about it. Ever since blogging became popular,  it is something I thought I would love to do, but I would always talk myself out of it; “Why do you think you can write a blog?”, “You don’t know enough, and you certainly aren’t interesting enough…” “What a crazy thought!”  I really did not believe in myself. One day, during a guided meditation, it used the mantra “You become what you believe.” Wow!  Sometimes you hear something you already know, but it is said in another way, and it just resonates with you.  Slowly I began to believe I could do this.

I have spent the last 20 years studying Ayurveda, Shamanism, and Toltec philosophies. I became well versed in aromatherapy, western herbalism, and went on to learn mindfulness. I found all these topics amazingly intriguing. I loved it, but I found it impossible to practice any of it! I decided to develop my own practice that combines the ancient ways with modern techniques. My favorite philosophy is Toltec; You are starring in your own movie, following a script you wrote yourself.  A close second is the holistic healing of aromatherapy and it’s use of essential oils.   Ayurveda gave me daily rituals, and Shamanism taught me about my spirit animal – the butterfly. Hence the name Conscious Butterfly.

The butterfly symbolizes personal transformation as well as having a gift for accepting change with grace. If you’re interested in more information about your spirit animal… https://www.mindbodygreen.com/articles/how-to-find-your-spirit-animal.

In December of 2016, I became very ill. I went from doctor to doctor trying to figure out what was wrong. I was fortunate to belong to UCLA’s medical group, but this did not help me. After four months of being in bed, barely able to walk or think, I was admitted to the hospital for eight days. They still could not figure out what was wrong with me. Finally, I was referred to UCLA’s Migraine Clinic with neurological specialists. I was finally diagnosed with vestibular migraines. This type of migraine has symptoms that include but are not limited to:

• Sound Sensitivity
• Light Sensitivity
• Nausea, vomiting, motion sickness
• Headaches
• Tinnitus or ringing in the ears
• Visual aura
• Abnormal eye movements

I have experienced all of the symptoms individually and together.  Trust me, it is exhausting. I has had this chronic illness for four years. There have been many ups and downs along the way, but I finally feel stable most of the time. It has been a long road to learn how to live with this new “normal.”  If you want more information on vestibular migraines… https://vestibular.org/migraine-associated-vertigo-mav.

I read Gary Vanderchuck’s book, Crushing It!: How Great Entrepreneurs Build Their Business and Influence-and How You Can, Too.  Here a link:  https://amzn.to/3dYvxNH  The reviews say, Crushing It! is a state-of-the-art guide to building your own path to professional and financial success, but it’s not about getting rich. It’s a blueprint to living life on your own terms. This is exactly what I wanted for myself. Gary says to become friends with failure. From failure comes lessons that can be applied to the next thing. He talked about all the ways you could communicate through social media, so I began following him on Instagram. His quotes and videos were so inspiring, but I still could not talk myself into putting pen to paper…

In March of 2020, I was hospitalized with pneumonia. When I came home, it was the beginning of the Covid-19 quarantine. I felt scared and vulnerable. Here I was with five of the six things that you can have that makes you more susceptible to contracting it:

• Asthma✔
• Diabetes✔
• Fatty liver✔
• Immune/Inflammation Issues ✔
• Respiratory Disease✔
• Old Age Is 57 old???

At first, I was convinced I could die. For a few days, I cried on and off all day. I was beyond sad. It was tough for me to not see my daughter (She is 32 and married).  We worked together, so I was used to seeing her every day, and now we were just Face Timing. I truly wanted to hug and kiss her (more for me than for her). This is not how my life is going to end! There were so many things I wanted to do that I always seemed to talk myself out of and I wasn’t following my dreams.  I was doing things that were easy for me, like owning an office management company.  I really enjoy managing businesses, and it certainly was lucrative, but it is not my passion. As time went on, I became less afraid of Covid-19. I decided to begin living my life the way I had always wanted. I was not going to let negative thoughts talk me out of writing. I decided this blog would be the best way to begin.

What things are you postponing?  I hope following me on this journey with motivate you.

I think it is going to be a fun ride! 

Butterfly Kisses